I prayed and prayed.

The pain wouldn’t go away.

Why anyone would sign up for this I don’t know to this day.

I kept making the same mistake.

I prayed for them to go away.

But I face them again.

I’m tired of being at their feet.

I’m tired of feeling like I’m the one who doesn’t deserve

I don’t deserve anything that’s all mine

They come inside and take things.

Mostly they take my self-esteem.

But I keep praying because it’s the only thing

that keeps me here

It’s the only thing that will make me feel like I have a chance

Even though this nightmare started before I had my breath

And it seems like it will last throughout this life and the next.