I prayed and prayed.
The pain wouldn’t go away.
Why anyone would sign up for this I don’t know to this day.
I kept making the same mistake.
I prayed for them to go away.
But I face them again.
I’m tired of being at their feet.
I’m tired of feeling like I’m the one who doesn’t deserve
I don’t deserve anything that’s all mine
They come inside and take things.
Mostly they take my self-esteem.
But I keep praying because it’s the only thing
that keeps me here
It’s the only thing that will make me feel like I have a chance
Even though this nightmare started before I had my breath
And it seems like it will last throughout this life and the next.